a new day

from here on out i'm only doing what i love.

collage

today

my yoga teacher told me that i had grace. wow.
if she only knew how i've fooled her!

i gave lulu a much needed bath. lavender soap!
she smells so purty now.

i have some good ideas today.
i hope that i will make excellent use of my time.

new york city

i was in new york
a week ago
all i can say is lovely things
about the town
i met cindy at a peace rally
we hugged in the pouring rain
a baptism of sorts
a rebirth
i need to/can do more
for the cause
her energy reminded me
of what matters

my east coast adventure
included a solo amanda palmer show
where she was amazing
and many more adjectives
i really love her
she moves me

train to boston
was a meditation
for me
i listened to music
as i always do on trains
the scenery
becomes a music video
for the song in my ear
i love that
it's unforgettable

i'm taking today off
need to make some raw delights
for my honey and me
we are trying to get this thing going
i need to be strong

think peace
.

Open Letter to Health Insurance Companies

Dear Health Insurance Companies in the US of A,

You suck.


Sincerely,

Us, the people forced into buying your bullshit.


PS.
go see Sicko

teatime in a dream with boy i used to know

a table separating us
two cups of tea
mine half empty already
yours still steaming
the spoon clinks against
the ceramic teacup
as i stir the honey
once more.

you are quiet today
i tell you
i’ve been missing you
for some time
and you only smile
as if you were waiting
all these years
for those words to
finally take flight
outside of me.

i'm sorry i was so scared
& i consistently picked
my mistakes like apples
from unforgiving trees
but mostly
i’m sorry that i forced you
to sit by and watch
while i ran around
trying to catch myself.

mothers day

the living death

in nature, there is no death. from decay life may arise.

i get to thinking about death so often. not in a horrible end-of-it-all way but in a thoughtful, curious, environmental way. a long time ago, i decided i didn't want the traditional "american" burial. i don't want my soul's vessel to be a sack of toxic chemicals stuffed into a sealed-up box and buried. although i've considered cremation, there are still some environmental issues to contend with there-releasing mercury into the air among other things.

i want to be a tree...or at least helping the tree above me live. i want to really go back into the earth, dust to dust and all that. there are such natural cemetaries that are helping people do just that. i think there are about 5 now in north america. i've heard of one in new zealand as well. here are some info links:

naturalburial.org

groovy green video post

grave matters book review

seattle!!

Seattle was good to me last week. It didn't rain once while I was there AND i went to the MOST amazing veggie cafes! i really dig that city.

the Healthy Hedon (southern style deliciousness)
the Wayward Cafe (vegan galore!)
Pizza Pi(all vegan pizzeria-wowzer!)
CyberDogs (all veggie hotdogs!!! yum!)

the lunatic is in the grass.

busy busy week working at the theatre & at the school. i had to go back to do a re-shoot for the video they have me working on. can't wait to get paid so i can plan a vacation! here are some links for the week. the classic album live folks performed at my theatre. they did dark side of the moon and it was amazingly radical.

classic albums live rocks!

10 things I've learned by milton glaser

wreck this journal page by keri smith

martha graham on being an artist

There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique.
And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and will be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable it is nor how it compares with other expressions. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open.
You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep open and aware directly to the urges that motivate you.
Keep the channel open. No artist is pleased. There is no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is only a queer, divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive.

-martha graham

i spy...

spring is on the way. i can feel a positive change happening.

anais nin

my latest collage. inspired by/in tribute to anais nin.
16X20 canvas
paper, tissue, thread, glue, paint, net mesh.

february so far...

our cat, Phat Grrl. clouds. vegetables for the pot pie. pleasure island. feasting with good friends. two jars of pesto i whipped up. the Perfect Sheese. tulips.

i've been having a sexy, gorgeous food month. i have always loved cooking but i've never been so connected to food as i am right now & therefore i have been making delicious, beautiful meals. this newfound connection is sparking a passion that is bringing so much woman out of me. i feel beautiful, motherly, spicy, etc!! i put music on in the kitchen and make a huge & glorious mess. lately, it's the shins new album while i cook. i love the recipes that are long and tedious. many raw recipes are like that. the other day i made "raw samosas". i made them in the morning because they have to dehydrate for 6 hours (if you've ever eaten raw cuisine you know it's worth it). in the evening we enjoyed them when matt & alicia came over. then i made a vegetable pot pie that took about 3 hours to make. i even made the crust from scratch which was very satisfying to me. josh said it was the best thing i've made yet. i think he was just hungry but i do stand by the idea that using only organic, local vegetables makes your food taste better. i also so enjoy the process of making healthy,luxurious food that people will love and i think my enjoyment of the making it puts good energy into it. i love presenting food. and then i love feasting on it for hours. a good glass of wine always helps too.

BUT, the best news of the month so far is that i found The Best Vegan Cheese EVER!~!!!! it's from Scotland and it's called Sheese. I order it from Vegan Essentials. remarkable indeed!

hmmm

"....and then the day came when the risk it took to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." -anais nin